Finally in the first time in however long i get to spend a whole day with susan!!!!!

We as humans must communicate. This is a simple fact of nature. Be it between siblings, friends, lovers, husband & wife or enemies. I believe this wholeheartedly. Why? Because for so long I spent my time in a social shell and didn't speak to anyone about anything. This an unhealthy practice which inevitably led to giant misunderstandings about the nature of my relationships with other humanoids. So what brings me to say this? I have noticed either by fault of mine or just that life happens that the levels of communication between me and those close to me have been and are on a steady if not rapid decline. I'm trying to stay positive and believe that everything will sort itself out on its own and that it is natural for people to become distant for an amount of time so they accomplish what they need to. However it is still imperative that contact with the humanoids that care about you at least get an update once in a while. Otherwise assumptions can mistakenly be made on either sides part about the nature of the friendship, family bond, marriage life or state of war.

I am sure that what I have just said will be misread, misinterpreted and missomethingorother which will lead to emails and calls and fights and other nonsense. But to borrow a line from someone I admire a great deal "that sounds like a personal problem"

So I had a chat with my boss yesterday and he said his plan for me is to become a full service advisor not just oil changes and internals. This in affect will double my income. That is a lot of money. This promotion was not supposed to happen till next year but it should be happening in the next month or two.

I'm really tired now but I have to wait for my uniform to dry. Lately I've felt a little lost and confused both here and at work. So add in the lack of communication and my general feeling about myself is that I am completely uneccasary. Which I know is not true but nonetheless its still how I feel. I made room in the living room so now I can practice everyday. So tomorrow I begin reforging my body into a weapon. This is going to be fun.

Master Chief John Urgayle : The ebb and flow of the Atlantic tides, the drift of the continents, the very position of the sun along its ecliptic. These are just a few of the things I control in my world. Is that clear?

Today is kind of a stay at home and work day. So I reorganized the living room to please the lady of the house. Laundry is going now and I'm about to start my last batch of putting books into the database. Feeling pretty good I worked out today. Anyway thats about it for now.

Oh I almost forgot from now on I'll be posting how many books I've collected so far for the store and I'll be posting pictures of the blades I'm restoring. I'd like to have a daily reminder of how far I have to go on each project. We'll finally be able to make a giant step financially next month so I'm super super happy about that.

Books: 600 of 5000 needed

Today was awesome. I woke up early to have great sex. I took Susan to work and headed over to Farmer Jack to pick up avacados. For what you ask? Well only for a birthday bash for Jason. See I was asked/volunteered to cook for the party. So I made fajitas, beans, guacamole, salsa and three cakes for 40 people. All this morning. Of course everybody loved the food. I am very pleased with myself. The party was a lot of fun. That thing with the midget and the donkey was sweet. Oh and I broke the pinata.

Rayburn : A man... can be an artist... in anything. In food, whatever... it depends on how good he is... at it. Creasey's art is death... he's about to paint his masterpiece. I don't have anything else to say.

Heres the thing about the pinata. The move was perfect. I've never had one of those before. It felt effortless, swift, decisive and devestating. So I realize that I have a gift for physical movement of a violent nature. I have done a lot of thinking lately about violence and aggression. But I haven't gathered all my thoughts on the matter yet so I won't get into it now. But I will say that I believe that my purpose for existing is directly linked to violence.

Romans 12:21
Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.

Anyway things are good the moneys coming in and work is great. I get to go to Honda school next week so that will be interesting.

What a great arrangement I cook Susan does the dishes.

Happy Birthday Shannon!!!!!!

Ok so I'll start off with this...today was my first day of going to the gym. I only went swimming for about 40 minutes. I want to use the machines but I don't know how. I feel good I'm a little rubbery feeling in my legs but I feel good. Can't wait to go back tomorrow.

Bruce Lee : It's not strength that matters, it's focus.

I saw Man on Fire. That is gonna be a lengthy post so I'll just say it was very good and is making me think. I will be writing about being trained for violence, turning it off in a search for peace and then switch it back on in order to rectify a situation.

Creasy : Forgiveness is between them and God. It's my job to arrange the meeting.

Work is fabulous. I am writing oil changes and handling all the internal stuff. Internals are predelivery preps for cars and accessory sales and instalation. Thats like getting a huge raise. So I'm learning alot and making money. Trying to find a good school to go to for business.

Gordon Gekko : The richest one percent of this country owns half our country's wealth, five trillion dollars. One third of that comes from hard work, two thirds comes from inheritance, interest on interest accumulating to widows and idiot sons and what I do, stock and real estate speculation. It's bullshit. You got ninety percent of the American public out there with little or no net worth. I create nothing. I own.

Oh and of course. I love my wife.

Doctor Marcia Fieldstone : Tell me what was so special about your wife? Sam Baldwin : Well, how long is your program? Well, it was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were suppose to be together... and I knew it. I knew it the very first time I touched her. It was like coming home... only to no home I'd ever known... I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew. It was like... magic.