I have sent my resume to a # of companies several have gotten back with me. Blockbuster has done the most so far. I would like to get that job it would mean a lot more money each month which would make the whole house thing a bit easier. I have a few ideas forming in my head to make money (all are legal). But I won't make a move till I'm sure. Monday I will be sitting at a doctor's office waiting to be checked out for the first time in 4 years. There is an extensive list of things to talk to him about. Oh boy I can't wait. I have a screaming headache. I wish it would go away. I don't like feeling like this because it incapacitates me. Can't play games, can't eat, can't sleep, can't get sweaty with my wife, can't read any activity just makes it worse. Come to think of it writing this frigging thing makes it worse.

Riddle me this. What is the point of trying to have contact with someone who is a liar, cheat, weakling, has hurt you and would without a doubt do it all over again without a second thought. I believe that trying to be friendly with a piece of shit human being like that is an act in foolishness borderline on outright stupidity. If this person in your life has a history of having these bad qualities why try to have them in your life at all? Why not just make the healthier grown up choice of telling that person their behavior is unacceptable? Then tell them to fuck off. Why give that person who is an "irritation" a voice at all. Why not just cut them off or my favorite just cut them?