It is now 3:30 in the morning.  Famous Dave's did not call back.  I am starting to get a little concerned.  I ask myself how long before things get a little sticky financially.  Monday I am going to apply everywhere I can think of to get a job stocking shelves or something in the meantime.  I will not allow myself to become stressed out about this when there is already so much other stuff to take care of.  School.  Bird.  Cooking.  Boxes.  Salsa.  Books.  Thank you cards.  Marriage.  Friends.  Family.  Health.  Weight loss.  Future.  I am beginning to feel like I am someone who is unemployable.  A foolish thought? Yes I think so.  But I think it none the less.  What will she think of me if I can't come through?  What will I think of me if I can't come through?  I feel like I'm cornered and I'm trying my damndest to stay calm and rational and not be reactionary to the current situation.  Not be a mindless beast.

All I can do is my best.  Stay honest do not do bad things to make money no matter how tempting it is.  Stay positive.  Believe.  Patience.  Think of her....think of her....think of her....

Edmond: Life is a storm. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes.

 
I have my umbrella.